Saturday, January 17, 2009


I'm not finished. I am not finished on so many levels. I am not finished growing as God's child. I am not finished being an awesome wife. I am not finished being a mother...I want more kids. God has so many children out there that need a mom and dad and we have more love and more life left in us. I am not finished being a student, I will get my turning back. I am not finished in my finances. Things are hard right now...I have been looking for a job forever but one is on the way. There will be a time when this will seem like a distant memory...just a time that God wanted to show his strength in my weakness. But the main thing that I just want everyone to know is I'm not finished and I believe God's word in Philippians 1:6 the bible says: God began doing a good work in you, and I am sure he will continue it until it is finished when Jesus Christ comes again (NCV). He is the one who has begun the "good work" in me and I know that he will...not maybe or could...but will finish it!

Thursday, January 15, 2009

Restless but Waiting.

Have you ever felt God moving way down in a place you didn't even know existed inside you? Have you ever heard him whisper something so quietly in your spirit that it's almost indiscernible? That is what I am going through now. Change is coming. I feel it, I hear it, I taste it and I smell it. The only thing left is to see it. Just like you can hear a train whistle from miles away and feel the track rumble under your feet when it's still outta sight...I know God's on his way. I trust you God. Even though I don't know where you're leading. I am yours, my marriage is yours, my children are yours (thanks for letting me borrow them they are one of my favorite parts of this life), my job (or lack thereof) is yours, my house is yours, my car is yours, it's all yours. I am feeling restless now...I truly believe that this restlessness doesn't come from discontentment but from my spirit being stirred by your holy hands. God I don't want to be led away by counterfeit opportunities please give me and Mitchell discernment during this time. Give us direction Dear Father....and make it plain so that we can understand and do your will.

Thursday, January 8, 2009

While I'm Waiting

I love the song by John Waller "While I'm Waiting". I heard it a few months ago when my friend Kesha played it before a Sunday School lesson. The last few months I have been stuck in a time of waiting. Basically I need a J-O-B. When I say need I don't mean I would like to have or we could use the money...I mean I am in need of a job. We are really struggling. I know that the same thing can be said by people all over this country right now. Everyone is looking for a job it seems. I have tried to be patient. I have submitted applications and resumes left and right. But I am just not getting call backs. I don't really understand what is going on. Except that God has the perfect job for me and I have not crossed paths with it yet. So I continue to wait. I am trying to take every step in obedience. I am trying not to get discouraged. I am trying not to believe the lies of the enemy that God has forgotten me and my needs. I am trying not to think about what we will do to pay the bills and buy the groceries in the coming weeks. I am trying to just wait patiently, do my part and let God do his. I fail often. I have moments when I just burst into tears out of frustration. I have moments when I can feel the breath of God on me and I know that he is for me and not against me. So I choose to continue waiting...taking every step in obedience...while I'm waiting. Please Lord act soon...but if not...send me comfort...While I'm Waiting!