Friday, July 31, 2009


New Google feature: You can now become a "follower" on my blog using your Google, AOL, or Yahoo ID. You just click the Join this site link and use the information you would normally use to sign into your email. It's very simple and that way you can follow without having to get a blogger account. Have a great Friday!!

Top 10 reasons I love 07/31/09!

The top 10 reasons I love this day:

10. I am at a job I love.
9. I am listening to the Christian Music station that I love (J103).
8. I am drinking a French Vanilla Starbucks coffee.
7. I woke up on time.
6. It's Friday.
5. I am off for the next 5 count em...5 days!
4. I woke up in my right mind this morning, in a warm bed, and had running water to shower's the little things that make life so great!
3. I woke up next to my best friend and husband of over ten years with whom I can be myself and know that he loves me just as I am. I am completely smitten by him.
2. I have two wonderful healthy kiddos waiting to spend the next five days with their mom!
1. I have been bought and paid for by a Savior who knows me yet still loves me and the God of all the universe knows my name and calls me friend.

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Amazed by John 3:16

I was listening to a local christian radio station this morning and the devotion was John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life." The DJ was talking about how glad he is that it says "God so loved the world" not God so loved the rich person or God so loved the white man, or God so loved the thin person...God loves us all times.

Even in my worst moment the Father is completely in love with me. This is so hard for our minds to grasp. In our society people love everything...they love their car and their dog (look at the post before this) I even love my job. But real love...true love is a kind of love that does something for you that you can't do for yourself. Look at John 3:16 again it doesn't say God so loved the world that he told them so or God so loved the world that he had a fuzzy feeling when he saw them. It says "God so loved the world, that he gave his ONLY Son." God did something for me that I could not do on my own. He did something for you that you can't do on your own either. He became the propitiation for our sins. Propitiation (or the act of propitiation) simply means to gain or regain the favor or goodwill of (someone). So that means that Jesus Christ the blameless one took on the guilt and shame of our sins to regain the favor and goodwill of the father.

So I said all of that to say this: If you are drowning in disappointment over past or present failures know that John 3:16 is so much more than a Sunday School memory verse. It is the key that unlocks the chains that we put ourselves in God loves us so much that he did something for us we couldn't do, and just to prove it (because He knows we need him to speak plainly) he added John 3:17 "For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but in order that the world might be saved through him." Even though so many who claim to be "christian" may judge and condemn you for your sins, Christ himself was not even sent to condemn you he was sent to save you. Not only from hell but from yourself. So enjoy the awesome gift you have been given and live today knowing that Christianity is not a list of rules and regulations to follow but the freedom of knowing that the creator of this world is madly in love with you and that nothing you can do will change that. So when you fail all there is to do is repent and try again knowing you are still the apple of His eye!

I will leave you with one of my favorite verses Romans 8: 37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am sure that neither death nor life, nor angels nor rulers, nor things present nor things to come, nor powers, 39 nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus our Lord.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

So blessed but...

Oh where to start? I love my job. I enjoy getting up and getting dressed up and going somewhere but it is more than just that. I like the people I work with. I like having my own space. I even like answering a million questions that a bank teller in Jersey has about her short term disability policy. I love my job. So what now?

Those of you who know me know that I don't sit still for long. My life is going great! I have a job I love. I am married to the love of my life. My kids are healthy!!! (Not even one breathing treatment in the last month). I have a wonderful church family. School is about to start for me and the kids and all of my school was paid for through grants and loans. Vacation is just a few weeks away...laying on the beach with my kids, my husband, and my whole (dad's side) extended family is just around the corner...but true to fashion I still have that sinking feeling something is missing. Ok so maybe not something but someone. You know what I am talking about if you know me at all. I want another child. I can't give birth to anymore. However my heart is just about to burst for another little one to love.

I am being patient. As patient as I know how to be. I am trying VERY HARD not to push the hub...although I havn't been able to resist the ocassional email or text of a beautiful little chinese girl. I haven't brought it up a million times or begged and cried...nope tryin to be adult about this and let him make his own decision. A great blog friend of mine gave me some advice. She said pray that God heals your heart or changes his. So that is my prayer. In the mean time I have found another way to give to the children of china.

I "met" Carrie click "here" for her blog. She works with a foster home in China. I read her blog and sat and cried for hours. I wanted to do something to help. I know I live in a small town and I can not go to China just because I want to. I have two children and a husband who depend on me and not to mention Sarah's Hope (a maternity home for unwed mothers) that we are trying to get off the ground. But I can do SOMETHING! After talking to Carrie I figured out that that something is a Operation Giggle. Click "here" for the blog that is not, I repeat, NOT, up and running as of yet (edited to add it IS I repeat IS up and running now!!!). I am working with Becky at Busy Mama Blog Design to get this blog up and running very soon. You can visit Becky's Blog Design page "here". All proceeds go toward her child's adoption costs.

Operation Giggle is going to be a Christmas Gift Drive for the 50 or so children at the foster home. I will be posting more information to the site just as soon as I can. Please be praying for God's leadership during this time. Until next time...


Wednesday, July 22, 2009

New Blog

Just so you know I am in the midst of sitting up a new blog it is I will let everyone know when I get it up and running.

I am working 40 hours a week at my new job and I LOVE it. I am so blessed to have found this job. I pray that I can be the employee I need to be and thrive at this company.

Please pray for me and my family as we take new steps of faith over the next few months.

Hope all is well!