Tuesday, July 28, 2009

So blessed but...

Oh where to start? I love my job. I enjoy getting up and getting dressed up and going somewhere but it is more than just that. I like the people I work with. I like having my own space. I even like answering a million questions that a bank teller in Jersey has about her short term disability policy. I love my job. So what now?

Those of you who know me know that I don't sit still for long. My life is going great! I have a job I love. I am married to the love of my life. My kids are healthy!!! (Not even one breathing treatment in the last month). I have a wonderful church family. School is about to start for me and the kids and all of my school was paid for through grants and loans. Vacation is just a few weeks away...laying on the beach with my kids, my husband, and my whole (dad's side) extended family is just around the corner...but true to fashion I still have that sinking feeling something is missing. Ok so maybe not something but someone. You know what I am talking about if you know me at all. I want another child. I can't give birth to anymore. However my heart is just about to burst for another little one to love.

I am being patient. As patient as I know how to be. I am trying VERY HARD not to push the hub...although I havn't been able to resist the ocassional email or text of a beautiful little chinese girl. I haven't brought it up a million times or begged and cried...nope tryin to be adult about this and let him make his own decision. A great blog friend of mine gave me some advice. She said pray that God heals your heart or changes his. So that is my prayer. In the mean time I have found another way to give to the children of china.

I "met" Carrie click "here" for her blog. She works with a foster home in China. I read her blog and sat and cried for hours. I wanted to do something to help. I know I live in a small town and I can not go to China just because I want to. I have two children and a husband who depend on me and not to mention Sarah's Hope (a maternity home for unwed mothers) that we are trying to get off the ground. But I can do SOMETHING! After talking to Carrie I figured out that that something is a Operation Giggle. Click "here" for the blog that is not, I repeat, NOT, up and running as of yet (edited to add it IS I repeat IS up and running now!!!). I am working with Becky at Busy Mama Blog Design to get this blog up and running very soon. You can visit Becky's Blog Design page "here". All proceeds go toward her child's adoption costs.

Operation Giggle is going to be a Christmas Gift Drive for the 50 or so children at the foster home. I will be posting more information to the site just as soon as I can. Please be praying for God's leadership during this time. Until next time...


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